Happy 2nd Birthday, Jussi

How can it be two years already and how can’t it be more?  I certainly still think of you sweet baby boy and wonder what you would have been like at two!  Would it have been terrible twos?  I’d much rather take those terrible twos than the terrible twos of not having you here.

Now that Aspen is here and is a living part of our family I notice you are missing even more.  We are so glad to have this baby brother of yours, but it also makes us remember that he isn’t you and he isn’t Avi. He is Aspen and you are you. And we miss you!

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I’ve always loved this carol. It’s always touched me down deep.  It was after Jussi was burried that I went to a coral production and this song was sung.  I never knew it before, but it refers to the Massacre of the Innocents, in which Herod ordered all male infants under the age of two in Bethlehem to be killed, and takes the form of a lullaby sung by mothers of the doomed children.

As I sat in the church at Christmas time, barely a month after buring my baby and listened to this song, the tears rolled… and they do yet again, each time I listen…

Happy 2nd birthday sweet boy!  I love you!

Aislings birthday card; Our new house with a room for each person:
















Xanthie’s birthday card; “Jesus’ Castle”