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Book Review: {From A Heart of Stone}

Book Review: {From A Heart of Stone}

From A Heart of Stone By, Rachel Godfrey This is a new type of book review! But one that I’m excited about! This is written by a dear friend of mine. We became friends soon after I graduated nursing schools and was a baby nurse! She took me under her wing and shared much knowledge(…)

My Baby…

My Baby…

I miss my baby boy. He was due to be born today. But he won’t be. I did get to hold him this past November, but not nearly long enough. And I will never again get to hold him on this earth. I miss that… A lot.

What Next?

What Next?

What next? Such a hard question and yet an important one as well. How can we step into the next season of life if we don’t ask this question? And how do we evaluate what that next step should be? How do I think about what I want and also what God wants for me(…)

Book Review: {Holding onto Hope}

Book Review: {Holding onto Hope}

Holding onto Hope By Nancy Guthrie Books written by human hand and by divine inspiration are of so much comfort to the grieving soul. Often I don’t know what I’m feeling or don’t have the words to describe my inner yearnings or agonies, but someone else who has been there before has found the words.(…)

Book Review: {I Will Carry You}

Book Review: {I Will Carry You}

I Will Carry You By Angie Smith I originally wrote this post when I was pregnant with Jussi, but it got lost and was never posted.  It has since been found and all written is still very true and has been a book of great comfort to me in both of my losses. Instead of(…)

How Do I Help My Children with Their Grief?

How Do I Help My Children with Their Grief?

I feel so burdened for my children. Loosing these baby boys has been hard on me, but my children, too feel it. They were excited about having a new baby join our family and it was something we excitedly talked about on a daily basis. We still talk about the boys almost on a daily(…)

Every Day

Every Day

What does every day look like? It’s different. I hope it changes. I know it all won’t go away, but I want it to get a bit better. Grief is still so close to the surface. Someone can just say something kind or show they care and the tears will well up in my eyes.(…)

My New Year Theme

My New Year Theme

O come, let us sing unto the Lord : let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation. Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving, and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms. For the Lord is a great God. Psalm 95:1-3a Over that last few weeks I’ve been trying(…)

Happy 1st Birthday Avi

Happy 1st Birthday Avi

It’s hard to believe it’s been a year. But it also seems like eternity as well. Today as we celebrate and grieve our little boy I think of all the milestones I’ve missed. I’ve missed the first smile, the first coos, giggles, and belly laughs. I didn’t get to count the first teeth, the first(…)

Thoughts of a New Year

Thoughts of a New Year

I’m ready for a new year. This closing year of 2015 has been one of the hardest in my life. Probably the hardest to date. There is a part of me that wants to throw it away. Forget about this past year and move on to a new and hopefully better year. But is that(…)